Title: Moving Forward
Warning: Death References
You fought to the last moment like I knew you would but then you slipped away and now all I am left with is memories. I hold onto them like a drowning man clings to a piece of wood in the ocean.
I sit in our home, which was once filled with love and laughter and now is silent and empty remembering times past. I know you are still with me because I sense your presence as I slip into our bed which is cold and empty, waiting for sleep to claim me, knowing I will see you in my dreams.
I wait patiently for the day when your name does not pass my lips in every sentence I utter. For the day that I can walk down the road and my step not falter when I pass an all too familiar place.
I see the look in everyone’s eyes when I disappear into my own world. They are patient and caring but I know they don’t understand. They didn’t have what we had. They didn’t lose what I did.
They tell me that time heals all and I know deep down that is true and that one day I will not walk in the door expecting you to be there. I long for that day, not because it means I don’t still miss you, but because it will mean that I am taking that first step towards a life without you in it.